I feel like sometimes I spend way too much time worrying about my image, who I am attracting to myself, why am I still single, and so many other little things that I seriously forget to pat myself on the back for all the BIG things I have accomplished.
Sometimes it takes hearing it from someone who doesn't even know you, and hears your story and is impressed by it. They don't see all these other things that we tend to think are so extremely important. I had to pause and take a few steps back and see what I have done for myself. See what I have accomplished. And really & trully, I am doing alright! :)
So -yeah I care about my image, but darn gone it, I refuse to keep stressing over every little thing I eat. I will by all means adopt healthier food choices, work out when I get a chance, but purpose to at least do something active once a week to keep my body in balance. Its all about being comfortable in your own skin, and I realized that I am comfortable in my own skin. I love the way I look, sure it would be great to have a super flat tummy with no belly fat whatsoever, but hey - nothing a minor procedure can't fix right? lol ... anyway the point is, I am happy with the way I look, so why keep killing myself over obsessing on what food to eat or not to eat...
And I need to be happy for myself. I have decided to stop looking for someone to make me happy, I don't need anyone to make me happy, I just need me to be happy for me. When I go out, I go to have fun, laugh a little or a lot, forget the woes of work or school and just enjoy being out and about ... If I happen to meet someone in the process, so be it. Its too much unneccessary stress and time always being on the look out for that someone. I need to laugh for me, dance for me, drink for me, go out for me... My Xakuna is out there and we will find each other, simple as...
I have been too caught up putting too much energy into all the wrong things. I have decided to stop stressing, stop trying to force things and just put out what it is i truly desire and let it come to me. My energy needs to be focused on say school work, improving my property, getting results at work.. that kind of stuff... the rest, living life and being happy - that is the easy part... just be! Why cloud my happiness with worry? my free time is my time to be, live, and be merry!!!
So cheers to that, i will drink to that... to living life for me, being happy for me and doing me...
