There is something magical about waking up to a gorgeous morning. Something that puts you in a good mood ready for the day ahead and feeling optimistic about life in general. It supersedes all the chaos that may be going on around you and for those fleeting moments none of it really matters. It gets me thinking about how grave my situation really is, if in this very moment nothing seems to matter. I love mornings like these because I honestly get to sit still for a few moments and be thankful for my life, thankful for all the things that I have accomplished and thankful that I can put all the things that are troubling me into perspective and figure out a way to rectify the 'problem' that seemed insurmountable 24 hours ago. I love mornings like these.
Sitting on my bed staring out the window and watching the neighborhood kids play in the playground across from our house. Each child trying to swing higher than the other, the two kids racing around the driveways on their bikes, the two little ones playing tag and trying to get in on the action of their older siblings, the rare squeals of laughter that filled the air in this otherwise quiet neighborhood. It brought back memories.. I sat there wondering why it was that I was terrified of being pushed on swings, I guess part of my brain thought that I may literally go over the bar and fall to my death.. a bit morbid perhaps but I always had a wild imagination. I wondered what it was that stopped me from learning to ride a bike, sure my bike was given away, but our neighbors must have had bikes right? I just found it odd that I didn't have memories of playing with the neighborhood kids or learning how to ride a bike so that i could race with the other kids. I must be the only person in their late twenties who does not know how to ride a bike. Perhaps I can change that next year - put it on my bucket list for 2012...
It was nice to sit and watch the kids at play full of life and a whole future ahead of them. I wonder what they will grow up to be? what decisions will they make for their lives? At times I wish I could go back to those carefree days with my whole life ahead of me. I wonder if I would make the same decisions given a second chance at it... Hmmmm I wonder. Truth be told, there is only one thing I would like to do differently and that would be being smarter about my credit. Everything else has resulted in creating a wiser me. Hmm okay well maybe two or three other things would be done differently - but I have no regrets. I am simply moving up from here, there are so many great things happening for me now and I wouldn't be here had I not grown and learned from my experiences.
All in all, today was a good day. I love Beautiful Mornings ...
